You are wiser than this, and you are wiser than to believe that this decision would be beneficial!
This is how you should have done it!
You should have approached this in a different way!
All of these questions arise in your mind when something goes wrong or when things don't go according to plan.
The never-ending voice in our heads that is awake and loud and constantly criticizes our work and makes us feel bad about ourselves.
Our subconscious mind may be a real pain in the neck.
Telling us that we should have known better than to make such errors, or just pointing out our flaws.
As humans, we are allowed to make mistakes, and it is by learning from our mistakes that we grow, whether on a personal or professional basis. Although we corrected those mistakes, the guild and the idea of someone searching into our past and bringing it all back concerns us... It's as if there's no other option, but are you sure there isn't?
Why justify your mistake when you can own up to it? You may lose some relationships, but at the end of the day, you will feel a lot better about owning up to your previous mistakes than rationalizing them over and again.